HOOOOORAY, by the time you read this I’ll have celebrated my 25th birthday! A whole quarter of a century. I thought I’d take the opportunity to write this post as a little letter to myself 10 years ago. 15 year old Violet deserves to read this (she’s in my mind somewhere!)
You are more than you realise. Although an old soul at 15, you doubt yourself. School is not the best. You may be surrounded by others who mock your figure, tell you you’re not quite good enough and doubt your ambition. Well, it’s a load of rubbish. You will become so much more than the girl who hunched her shoulders to be at a ‘normal height’ like the other girls in school. Stay with your friends who lift you up, they will stick around for years to come.
As time goes on, you will grow. You will embrace your height and size and realise that your body is beautiful. If I could speak to you now, I’d tell you to stop hunching over and wearing 3 sizes too big tops to hide your tummy. Remember your body is amazing, it already does and will continue to do so much for you. So be thankful for it, and do not neglect any day.
Your sense of humour has, and always will be your safety blanket. You’ve always felt that if you can make another laugh they will like you. Whilst there’s nothing wrong with this, you have much more to offer. You’re musical, talented, artistic and pretty darn clever. You may never become Indiana Jones as you wished but you’ll find ways to use your talents that you never before could envisage. Keep smiling and laughing.
I know you think that no boy will ever like you. That your friends are much prettier, slimmer and kinder than you. But you will soon realise that there is much more to happiness. Love yourself first, and others will too. If you are wondering however, you do meet a funny boy in a dodgy nightclub and eventually marry and procreate with him. But don’t let that put you off living your life. He’s
pretty amazing ok.
Ignore the teachers that tell you these are the best years of your life. For you, they’re not. There’s absolutely nothing wrong with this. Every year you develop, you become stronger and more self-aware. This is where your strength lies.
Enjoy Violet, and remember the best is yet to come.